For the first time Chetan Bhagat, I hate you

When one starts following a routine, it's the toughest to break it. My work keeps me busy. I'm a 23 yr old engineer striving to prove my presence in an IT MNC where I got a job after rubbing my ass out in Bangalore fighting with the odds. This is a lonely city which runs behind me to skin me alive. Where number of engineers is more than number of flies, where people only care about 2 figures -LPA and BHK.

The best thing that keeps me up is books. A part of my salary every month is allocated for books. Yesterday after I returned from office after working 2 extra hours, I picked up the book -Revolution 2020 - the book I had pre-ordered in August itself. I wont reveal all. But when the protagonist goes to Kota, I remembered my day in Rajkot. I too had felt like an utter failure. When he came and his father died, I remembered my Baa and her last breath. When the revolution began, I found it exciting - "Everyone should do their bit". When the childhood friends fell in love again, it felt... good. After all he had suffered a lot. And they both loved each other so much.

But WHY? WHY WHY WHY?? Why did Gopal hurt her in the end? None of the two will ever forget the time they had together. Time they spent as children, friends, lovers, soulmates. If Keshav taught him a lesson, why couldn't Gopal change it himself? Or do the favor to Raghav and not hurt the sweet girl, Aarti! Everything could not be good as then Raghav could be all alone and he would never be as smart and brave as he is. But? But, why? Raghav could try living happily or okay, Gopal could convince both of them? Why did he hurt her? Why is he still sending envelopes and the scrapbook? Oh mine! How could he do this? How could YOU do this Chetan Bhagat?

I feel like throwing the novel or myself or banging the laptop on the floor (though I wont cuz I respect all these things). But why such an end?

I could feel myself in the protagonist and then this?

Everything happened to Gopal because of his fate. Perhaps all was written by God.

GOPAL WAS NOT A BAD GUY. He had a desire to be rich because he lost his parents out of poverty. His childhood was malnourished and INDIA DOES NOT HAVE OPPORTUNITIES FOR THE POOR. So what do these poor yet ambitious people do? They succumb to the society and try easier ways to make money. All they want is to make, is money so that their gonna be families do not suffer what they have suffered.

Every Indian child is born with a dream in eyes. They are ambitious souls. They want to live everything. Go everywhere. Explore what they see. Make things simpler, better. Their life is complex but they think with their hearts and they always assure their hearts that one day your dream will come true. They want to be poet, painter, chef, journalist, interior decorator or a NASA scientist.

This Indian child protects this dream in the heart until one day he faces reality -You first need to fill your stomach, you need to make a living, you need to increase the standard of living, you need to live your parents' dream (which is mostly making an engineer). And he runs behind this same routine to make money. The same routine to gain reputation, to gain respect which comes with money. In India, if we have money, people will summon you as someone who is "understanding", "caring", "smart", "intellectual" and a "diamond". But at the same time, if he really has all these but is not making enough money, he will be called a "loser"

We live in a country where parents want to brag about their children to their friends and relatives but in all this they never ask their child why he/she is feeling down .. Sometimes their wishes, dreams become a child's dreams and sometimes their attitude becomes a child's reason to fail in life. If he makes good, they will proudly say, "My Son". Otherwise... "Nalayak ko padhna toh hai nai" Do they consider sitting near their child, giving them a warm hug, kissing on forehead and ask: "Wat's the problem? Tell us. We will solve it."

So dear CB, what do u mean? That such children dont have an opportunity to live happily? They could be happy ! Gopal could fix it by fixing a meeting with both of them together! What did you do of my story? The story in which I was seeing myself in the beginning, middle?

Now what I conclude is:

1) My head is bursting inside out (Thanks to the climax).

2) Varanasi is going to be a better place as Raghav is going to win the elections.

3) Gopal and Aarti will never forget the time they had together. Though Aarti has a family. Gopal.....

4) I had a long day and I've to reach office in next 3 hrs. (Routine)

5) I still wont get any sleep cuz I'll keep finding ways to make all 3 of the happy.... I mean c'mon this should not be the end. A guy who gave his life to a gal.... Does this in the climax??????

NO. My heart is not ready to accept. No matter what .... Urgh :@

Why? :'(

3 Idiots -The Movie Effect… Part-I

After seeing 3 Idiots, one would definitely say that the education system in India sucks and that its the same old system that has not been updated for decades now. Something has to be done, someone has to start or whatever.

But the freaking truth is that we are adapted to this environment only. Like mugging for exams, vomiting it on the papers, Cramming damn formulas or learning something that’s already invented or discovered.

Our brains are wonderful at copying ideas. Not because we lack talent but because we lack integrity. We, in colleges are forced to make boundaries before we start think. The day we break the barrier of our minds, we can get to know a better world, our own vision and much more..

I m an engineering student and i hear very often from my colleagues that i wanted to b a poet or a Chef or something weird like fashion photographer but because my parents wanted, m doing engineering. We lose our minds(not brains, cuz engineers have that) and enter the world of competition, where we must either win or make others lose. They chase the world to get their bread(and cheese of course). Meanwhile, they surely succeed but forget the real dream of their life…

In engineering colleges, all people talk about is to get a US job, an Indian bride and mansion on the beach… We can read and teach, grow and be example for others. But where’s the key to our minds???

Well, even i wanted to be a Lawyer and serve the nation by being a politician later (laugh).. I dont think studying law is possible now as i m too deep in Computer Engineering now. But ya i will definitely serve the nation by living the life of my ideal -Andrew Carnegie. (Thats my all time dream)..

Oh, do u know wat this kind of blogging is said?? Its said “Exam time relief!!” LOL yah my semester exams are from 22nd Jan, and here i m complaining about the system that ruined “our” minds.

:-O M I anti-publicizing Engineering??

Well whatever, Engineers minds are designed for “One Night Study”.. Yah! cuz we are like rockets, we dont work until there’s fire on our backside. One book, one night and four duffers (ROFL)..

The system is old and lacks personal interest but Engineers, i believe, are in-genius. And they can b easily recognized even from a group of 100 people.

The fun(on level top), the tension(Note: It might turn u bald), the submissions(not to mention the scan and print option).

From the first day of ragging to the last day of placement, m gonna miss it all.

Whoops! Now if i dont go to study, i will lose my pocket money too :O

Perhaps, All Iz Well!!!

My Definition to Love... :)

Love is when u feel sum1 more than u feel urself.
Love is when sumbody's msg makes u weak on knees.
Love is when a touch of one's hand make u feel like u were born for that moment only.

Love is when u cant move ur eyes from his/her eyes.

Love is when u try forgetting sum1 by involving urself in lots of work but when u lay on bed & close ur eyes, u rmbr her smile or his words.
Love is when u really know that u aren't going to get it but still u dont stop "Loving".

Marriage Proposal.

Nisha, Wud u come on a date with me??

I've planned a date. :-) I dont have time to write everything. Sorry.

But yes at the end of the date I will take u to a somewhere like middle of the garden or in front of the beach. Where there are b'ful flowers, a lil humming of bees, soft music, u & me.

We would talk endlessly there. I wud then ask u for a dance.

Slowly I wud whisper these words in ur ears..

I dont know whether its Love or not.
But when I m with u I simply wanna stop time for lifetime;
When u r not here I wish we could spend more time together.

I dont know whether its Love or not.

But I just wanna hold u in my arms for the rest of my life.
I know its tough to make u mine;
Its tougher to keep the love & relationship;
But its the toughest to live without u.

U must have heard people saying that I can die for u, etc.
But I say I can live for u, for your dreams...
I guarantee that there will be tough times,
I guarantee that at some point of time either u or both of us will want to run away from the relationship,
But I also guarantee that if I dont ask u to be mine,
I would never know what Love is...

Will you marry me?

Heyy I know its to early to talk about marriage.. :)

But c when u read a book, u dont read it all at once. U turn page by page...
Right?

I...... I m an open book & on every page u turn u wud know that how perfect u make me feel.

I ve different avatars in my life but all my avatars love u so much.. Try me :)

Is This Love?!?!

When I'm with her I want to stop time for Life-time

She has drived me crazy. I just cant stop thinking about her. She is the gal i dreamt about. The way she gives me superpower is incredible. If only i had one chance i wud tell her that how much i love her. When i told her on the very first day itself that I Love U, she felt am joking. The next time when we met after a month she had forgotten me. But i still loved her. Now when & i ve already told how much i love her, her first reaction was..."Lets not talk about Love." But when i made her understand that i do love her, she just cried. I guess she did not want to say "NO" & I also felt that she had some personal problem.

Her Dad is a heart patient & He has selected a boy for her... The guy is currently in UK doing MBA. Though she said that she can deny to marry(after meeting him) but she wants to go for arrange marriage.. :-(

I really dint know wat to say. For a moment I felt that if she doesnt want to b mine then i must not talk with her & i also told her to take care of herself for the rest of her life & be the Best like always. I dint want to go closer to her as ultimately it will result into a broken heart.. But at the very next moment I felt it in "Her way". What if I were at her place...?

If I had left her, then she would never be herself while talking to a guy. She would be always scared that she might again lose a friend because of her being so nice & sweet..

After that day she had to go to her Granny's place in Kutch & she was to return in a week. She's in Mumbai -a metro gal, yet she is very very simple & sweet. In fact, she's the sweetest gal on this planet. And the best thing about her is that she never hurts anyone.

Sometimes I feel that I m not talking to a gal who is on planet Earth.. Rather m talking to an Angel who is the Princess of Heaven.

I wish I could tell all these things to her. I also tried to tell via a poem(I think she is very romantic but hides to be so..)

I dont know how to express all my feelings for her. But I just want to live my life for her smile.. I want to complete all her dreams...

From Salsa to Switzerland;

From Love to Life;

From Anything to Everything.

I wish i could fly to her right now..

Love really hurts..

When You love someone so much like I do, the only thing you can do is
to marry.